Life is going by in a tizzy.
I just can't seem to keep up with this pace,
but its exhilerating all the same.
New things are surprising me
and making me all kinds of excited.
....
God has been showing himself in
new ways too.
hehe
I love when i get a small sense of
his vast love of me.
i find myself so often recalling my
unworthyness,
stubborness,
lack of usefulness,
unwillingness,
but then kindly reprimands me
and whispers his sweet love
song in my ear.
It tickles ever so slightly and makes me all
kinds of joyful. I just want to shout it out,
to make others understand,
to make you understand where I am.
The way he works blows my mind,
so should I sit here attempting to understand?
Or should I accept that I can't possibly understand
and therefore move on in learning more of who
he is?
.......
I've been questioned lately
(and seemingly its been multiple times)
of what it is that defines me.
How do I view myself?
Who am I?
You see, dear friend, I believe that if God is the most
important thing in my life,
then shouldn't what he think be
what I believe?
Cause I want it to be...I want him to be most important.
But I can't. Bleh....its so hard to be human sometimes,
I want to believe him soooo bad,
so bad it hurts.
So now i'm attempting to put forth my efforts
in believing God's view of me
to be what my identity is.
Cause if I could just believe him with my silly heart,
then i think that life might be a little easier.
Easier in that i won't have to care
about how others identify me,
because
i
am
identified
by
my
CREATOR.
.....
(so are you)